Funny how friends are made from strangers

I have given up on changing my blog.
I cant figure out what to do with blogger when it keep giving me errors. Because I'm supremely pissed, I shall not use blogger.
Nothing interesting about life. I'll blog when there is.

Many things have happened lately but as the title of this entry suggests, I didn't have the time to blog about it.
One of the many events is Mr and MRS Toh's wedding. It was terribly sweet and Miss Khoo, no, Mrs Toh looked totally gorgeous!
Food was really good and had the company of the tuition mates so I was a very happy girl that day. (:
This makes me miss Genting!

Also there was ITC and I am considering, note the key word, CONSIDERING going back for CI course. But don't get your hopes up; its not confirmed yet. ITC was- nothing interesting. Besides feeding mosquito of course.

Anyway, I was taking the MRT the other day and I was leaning on the transparent thing. The thing which people are so fond of leaning on when they don't have seats. And I was staring out of the windows and watching the train passing all the usual scenes, HDB flats, road, more roads, a park, some school, more HDB flats, when I realised that I was staring at the scenery which the train has already passed. And if I change my position and lean on the opposite transparent thing, I would be staring at the buildings that the train have yet to pass, in other words, see what has not yet gone by. And I realised how my position on the train has so much to do with my life now. How I keep desperately holding on to my past memories and refusing to look into what the future may hold, refusing to look ahead and move on. In fact, I'm terrified of even looking into the future, terrified that maybe my life won't turn out as how I have always wanted it to and that I may let my hopes up only to be disappointed all over again. Looking back, however, is so comforting- it's as if my past memories is evidence that I have lived. My life now, it's as if I don't have a purpose. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to be comforted about, nothing to be happy about. Dwelling in the past just makes me feel like maybe, just maybe, I have made an impact. Maybe it is me reading too deep again, but these thoughts have been occupying my mind. I need some motivation to drive myself on. I need to stop thinking about such stuff and keep yearning for this pause in my life. I doubt its healthy. I don't have to let go of my memories, but I really need to learn to get new ones.

Senseless rantings aside, I have a tiny mountain of tutorials to finish and I'm going out with farh and woonshin, and hopefully Nat tomorrow to attempt to finish them. I miss Farh. And I need a green tea frappe.




Too bad Pear is not in this picture. Love it. Heh


Anyway, I think too many people know about this blog so maybe I'm going to change it again. Whee

I realised I don't have anything remotely interesting to say these days, so from now on I will not blog until I have something worth reading or when I really need to blog.
toodles.

It's me. It's me. It's just me. It's my own bloody fault in the first place.
I feel like running back. Just seeing them. I don't even have to see all of them. Just let me see the 4 of them. That's all. That's all.
Well, too bad, it's your own fault isn't it?

I wish that my fantasies do come true.
I wish I can look on at these pathetic situations and not care.
I wish I could just live my life without worrying every single damn second.
I wish you would understand how I'm feeling.
I wish that I had something to truly live for.
I wish you would understand.
I wish I feel alive.



Tomorrow will be a better day.

I am so tired. So tired. So tired of questioning whether my decision was right, tired of questioning whether I am going to be fine. Tired of just existing without a purpose. All I want to do is to curl up and cry.
I just want to be happy. Is that a demanding request?
Why is it so hard for me to be happy?



I wish that I could be like I was before
I was riding high but now I'm feeling so low
I wish that you could make my world feel better
And take away the hurt so I won't be so far gone

Farewell to RJ.
I think I will definitely miss RJ, not all but at least some. Let me list the things I love about RJ.
1)HHo8
Which means Sijing, Latha and Isaac and many more! They are the ultimate people to talk to. To laugh, to complain to whine, especially those three. Haven't seen Latha in FOUR years so I'm really rather upset that I'm not going to be her schoolmate again. And Sijing and Isaac! Even though I have only known them for.. 6 weeks? I think they are one of the best people I have ever met. Aww. Hope to see them soon.



Trying to look fierce. And failing of course. Look at Latha.

HHo8

2) Odac 24
Even though I only went for 2 trainings so far, I love odac! It's actually really odd why I'm so drawn to it. Because what i experienced so far is just pt and captain's ball. But then I still love it lots!
Byebye odac. Really glad I got in. Sorry I had to leave.





3) 09SO6Q



Need I say more?

Sang the college anthem for the last time today.

Thank you all those who gave me parting gifts. Although I doubt any of you will ever find my blog.
The Rafflesian dream is over.
Auspicium Melioris Aevi.




Shall end my entry with a damn funny incident which happened while trekking bukit timah nature reserve.

Daddy, Mummy, and I stopped to look at creature on a tree.
Me: Ohh a monkey climbing the tree!
Mum: Why isn't it moving.
Dad: It's not a monkey las.
Me: It is! Looks like one.
Me and Daddy argue a little more when the "monkey" climbed up the tree a little higher and jumped off spreading its wings(looking like a parachute) and landing on another tree.
Me: (stuns for a little while) Oh, its a bat.
Mum: Oh. And I was wondering why the monkey suddenly had an umbrella.
....

Take 5 was awesome! Ok, so it wasn't awesome all the way, but it was still so much fun!
At first the class was together and so we just sat down and ate, and ate, and ate somemore, which wasn't very interesting so some of us went to walk around, but the walking was aimless and boring. The lucky thing is, I saw Farh on the way and she was with Joy! So we went off the watch talentime and I have to declare that 5-some(however you spell that) is superb. Some comedy thing, booyah or something like that was really really really really good too and 5 was good too. I though Take 5 will be a supreme bore with lots of planned activities but it turned out to be completely different! Turns out, we had the free time to ourselves and we could do anything! Even wandering around. It was super fun.
After that went out for an OG lunch which wasn't all that interesting. The interesting part came after that where some of us went to play bridge at some park. I kept losing and was thoroughly upset. But I'm over it now.
Haha.


Talentime is this school is 2000 times better than talentime in the other school.
Haha.
Go figure.


To be or not to be, it's still pencils.
(2b or not 2b )

Today was, nothing special.
Somehow I got a record breaking 6 flowers this year, but didn't feel very loved.
BOO.
After school met up with Miss Jin and Miss Tan(yes the strange one) and we watched P.S. I love you. It was such a fantastic movie that I fell asleep. Seriously interesting okay!  And so after that had a walk around.
And a woman approached me and asked me IF I WAS SELLING FLOWERS! I wasn't carrying that many flowers please. It was only 6. And Xiaoxi laughed really loudly at me. ):
Nvm las. She's irritating.

Pictures when I feel like it.



Sometimes I really need to stop  living in fantasy.

To show her undying affection for me, my darling koko decided to shit in my room. The smell filled my room at an alarming pace and I had to clean it up. 
A cherry on top to a beautiful day. Who doesn't love a day where you have headaches, muscle aches, burning sensations and having to clean up very very smelly dog shit?

I need an ice pack.